Oh, and it is even worse because I was not trying to get pregnant. It was this kind of 'see, you should not have gone there and now look at the mess you have made.
--You will pay for this the rest of your life.
--You will be that same 87 year old Mother you saw at the hospital taking her 44 year old son to see his doctor. The one you smiled at but inwardly sighed with great relief because, really, that is depressing & just unnatural for a Mother to still be responsible for her son's checkups when she is 87 years old!!
It took a while for me to stop seeing that in a negative light, yet I can smile about it now, knowing/hoping that I will be around long enough to accompany Lauren to the doctor when she is 44 years old.
Because so many children with Ds are born to mothers under 30, I do not actually get the chance to talk about this with that many other moms. The younger moms, though, have the perspective of "I am so young, how could this have happened?" For them there is no cliche', just wonderment.
The statistics say this about the occurrence of Down syndrome:
- About 1-in-800 risk overall for all births
- Less than 1-in-1,000 for women under 30
- About 1-in-25 risk for a 45-year-old mother
Here are just a few:
I've lived long enough to see that children with Ds are really, really wonderful and can do many wonderful things
I've lived long enough to have put another daughter with special needs all the way through high-school. IEP's, OT, PT, etc. etc. are not new terms to me.
I've lived long enough to know that children pretty much choose their parents and not the other way around. Lauren was born to Chaz and me because she needed to be in our family.
I've lived long enough to know when I need to worry and when I don't. I know that Lauren will walk one day and when she does, she does. (I don't need to be chasing her around the church, mall, playgroung, school. That day will come and perhaps by then I will be ready for it).
I've lived long enough to know that it is sometimes hard to raise a child that is different but it is always, always, always a gift.
I've lived long enough to know that I still have much to learn and that Lauren will be there to tell me what she needs.
And now, some pictures, because what good is a blog post without them?: